My Hot Alpha

Was it awkward or was I just being my weird overthinking self again? I was listening to the conversation happening around the table while eating my food.noveldrama

Lacey was massive and I joked about there being two in there, but she corrected me and was sure there was only one. Were we okay? Was the awkwardness there because of me? Was I making it awkward?

A sigh fell from my lips. I was becoming annoyed with myself for being stupid. We were all friends, the best of friends. I was overthinking the situation like always.

"I miss this". Lana smiled. "We never hang out anymore".

She wasn't wrong. I was surprised we all made it here today. Everyone was always busy living their own lives.

"Life gets busy". I shrugged. "But you're right we need to do this more often". I took a sip of my coke my eyes landing on Lacey.

She had barely touched her food at all.

"Are you okay?". I asked.

"Fine". She smiled.

"Okay". Jake's voice was ringing in my head. I was not to push her; she didn't feel comfortable around me as it is because of the pregnancy which again was the stupidest thing I had ever heard. "Pregnancy is kicking your ass Lacey". Alanna spoke. "Are you still being sick?".

She nodded.

"Have you tried ginger?". I asked.

"I have sickness tablets but they're not working. I'm sick all day everyday".

"I would try the ginger. Charlotte said it worked a treat when she was pregnant with the twins".

"I will". She smiled. "Thanks Leah and look I'm sorry".

"Lana let's go order more tacos". Alanna grabbed her arm pulling her from her seat. "We'll be back".

"Hey". Lana groaned. "Don't pull me".

"I haven't exactly been a good friend". She sighed. "I just couldn't face you".

"You don't need to explain yourself Lace".

"I do". She nodded. "But please understand I didn't want to avoid you or put distance between us but-...". A sigh fell from her lips. "You lost your baby, and I couldn't bring myself to shove my pregnancy in your face". "You know I would never think that, Lacey. I'm happy for you this is an exciting time, and I wish you nothing but happiness". I reached over placing my hand on top of hers. "I'm always here for you".

"It's horrible". She spoke. "This is supposed to be a happy time in my life, and I hate it. I'm sick every day, I can't sleep at night because I can never get comfortable and the pain in my legs is excruciating".

I felt sorry for her. She wasn't catching a break, and she still had a long way to go before the baby was due.

"I'm going to get your house back to you". It was the least I could do. My gran would just have to live somewhere else.

"No". She frowned. "It's not our house and Jack prefers staying at his parents. He doesn't like me being left alone".

"Is that what you want?". I asked.

"It's for the best". She shrugged. "And I would never expect your gran to move out just for us".

Yeah, well she was the one that up and left in the first place, but I guess she was right. I couldn't ever see myself throwing my gran out. I wouldn't be able to bring myself to do that. "So, we're good?". I asked.

"Always". She grinned. "I really am sorry Leah. I should never have thought that in the first place. How are you doing with it all?". She asked.

"I'm okay keeping busy". Talking about the loss of my baby wasn't something I was ready to talk about and I wasn't sure if I would ever be ready. Jake and I have dealt with it our own way. We're happy, we're in a good place.

Maybe I'll never talk about it because honestly, I don't think I need to. It had nothing to do with anyone else. It wasn't going to do anyone any good and yeah, maybe keeping it locked away wasn't the answer, but I was doing what was best for

me.

Right now, that's what was best for me. It happened and then it didn't, and I was okay with that. I was a strong believer of everything happens for a reason and sadly it wasn't our time but that didn't mean it was never going to happen again. We would have a family one day.

Like the sweetheart she is she took the hint and for that I was grateful. Not that she or anyone else would ever force me into talking about it.

"So, your gran being back. Is she back for good?". She asked.

I shrugged. "A lot has happened these past few weeks". I didn't believe that Jack hadn't told her anything and I'm quite sure he was aware. Jake needed someone to talk to about all this as well and Jack was his best friend. "I've heard a few things". She spoke. "Well Jack has shared a few things with me. Did your dad really kidnap you?".

I couldn't help the laugh that fell from my lips. It sounded weird when I heard it coming from someone else. I mean whose dad kidnaps them? But could we really say it was kidnap? He took me but it wasn't out of badness. "Sorry I shouldn't laugh about it, but it all worked out. He's here visiting just now".

"So, he did really take you?". She frowned.

"He did". I nodded. "But it wasn't out of badness or spite. He felt the only way he could see me was to bring me to him. I've already went over it all a thousand times and we're good. It's all sorted it's self out". "Oh, okay".

"Weird right?". I grinned.

"Very". She laughed. "Surely he could have called you or at least sent a text?".

"Right". I laughed. "But regardless I'm glad he's here and for once everything seems to be looking up".

"I'm glad and I'm happy you're finally getting some peace. Am I right in saying you applied for college?".

I nodded. Jake didn't know I had been accepted yet, so I didn't want to tell anyone before him.

"You do know Mr. Gallagher is the dean there, right?".